Tuesday, September 22, 2009


For the past week I have been trying to play catch-up w/ my chores. I usually do my laundry on the weekends but last week I was at the women’s retreat. It was my first one and it was good. I actually wasn’t too quiet and talked to people. On the first night, they played Anita Renfroe’s “It's Probably Just My Thyroid” dvd. Wow, she is really good. I laughed almost the whole time. But what was better than that, the next day, I met someone who is going to help me. Funny thing is she doesn’t really come to Seed’s too often because of school and work but for some reason she came to the retreat. She told me she goes out on Friday nights with a group of her friends to witness. When I heard that my mouth dropped opened. I have been praying to Abba to help me with that because Abba has been bugging me to go but I have been just to chicken to go out alone. I did it once last year but that was it. I knew Abba had ambushed me at that moment. Several years ago, Abba took me to a place and showed me speaking to a crowd. The place looked like an airport. It had a huge 40’ glass wall and I was standing on top of a white plastic picnic table. At first I was behind myself. Then I was me listening to myself surprised on how I sounded “That came out of me?” I then was off to the side of me standing on the ground looking up and I was actually normal weight again. Was I happy when I saw that! It has been 10 years and they still don’t have the right level of thyroid medicine in me yet. Auggh! I hope that when I go out and speak to people it will be all Abba. Now I can finally say “Here I am Lord, send me”

Monday, September 14, 2009

"Ladies Escape retreat"

This Sat/Sun, Sept 19 & 20, I'll be going to Seed’s Ladies Escape retreat at Christ the King Spiritual Life Center in Greenwich, New York. It wiggs me out that we are going there because it is a catholic place. I grew up being catholic and was even confirmed. I can gratefully say now "I am a born again spirit filled true believer." As a kid I went to Christ the King school in Albany, how ironic. The bondage and suffering I went thru at that school...I still have bad dreams from that. I almost didn't sign up but I know Abba is with me plus I need to be with my church family. No excuses, I just need to suck it up.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

“Push Buttons”

My engineer came into my office room today to tell me that on my job Garvey Ave,(aka Gravy Ave from the guys at work because the first 5 floors are typ. Hey, you snooze, you lose) the structural steel post for the elevator needs to be moved because it is in the way of the elevator push buttons. The concrete product I draft will also need to be moved too on every drawing, but I still sat there laughing. How could something so small be such a problem? This also reminds me of what we see and hear. A bad movie, people degrading other people or bad situations can still influence us. In Galatians 5:9 says "A little leaven leavens the whole lump." and in Proverbs 4:23 ”Keep your heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life” We need to guard our hearts. If not, the little things in life will just be able to control and “push our buttons.”

Monday, September 7, 2009

"The battle is not ours"

Four months ago, my sister Becky gave me "VeggieTales - Esther, The Girl Who Became Queen" DVD. I took Becky last year to see "The Pirates Who Don't Do Anything: A VeggieTales Movie" It was a really good movie and I loved the song "YoHo Hero" Becky told me I would like Esther. She was right and it really hit home for me w/ the layoffs at work. Yes, I know it is a veggietale cartoon but sometimes Abba will use simple things to strengthen us. Here is a song from it.

Mordecai: You wanted to know why you
became queen. I told you God must have a reason.
Esther, perhaps he put you here, for such a time as this.
Perhaps this is the reason.

Ester: Tell me why, I don't understand.
Tell me why, or show me your hand.
Tell me why because I can't see my way through
What now...should I...do

The battle is not ours

We look to God above~

For he will guide us safely through

and guard us with his love

I will not be afraid

I will not run and hide~

For there is nothing I can't face

when God is at my side

No, there is nothing I can't face

when God is at my side

The battle is not ours

We look to God above

For he will guide us safely through

and guard us with his love ~

Narrator: Queen Esther just learned that sometimes God has
plans so big only he can see 'em! All she had to do was believe.

Saturday, September 5, 2009

"He is Holy!"

A couple of years after I graduated from college, I took a second job working for the Albany Times Union News Paper. I had a paper route when I was 12, but this was different. I would fill about 30 boxes(see pic) along Central Ave @ 5:30am. It would only take about a hour to do. It was my responsibility to clean, fix, and move to a better place these boxes to sell my papers inside. I took this job to pay for my school loan from JCA that Abba did not want me to go to in the first place. Anyway, one day in April, it had lightly snowed and the boxes had a light coating on them. I used my hands to wipe off the snow because I had ran out that morning forgetting my Mechanix gloves. I would wear the gloves for gripping the papers and for no ink to get on my fingers. I was half way through my route when my hands were starting to get numb. As I was loading the box, I held the door with my knee and would let the door swing up and hit my left hand so the door would not slam shut. At that moment I had my fingers too close to the opening and the door came up and squished them. I yanked out my hand and yelled,” God!” A few seconds later Yeshua said in a facetious chided tone, “ I suppose you want Me to heal you now.” I said, ”no??” I got in my truck thinking, why is He mad, what did I do?” Then Yeshua said "Theresa, think of it this way, at least you have ice." Sometime later, I started thinking about what had happened that day and why He was mad at me. Abba reminded me of what I had said. I was so sorry, I didn’t realize what I had said. I had called His name without regard. I am determined not hurt Abba again. For He is Holy!

Psalm 99 - Praise to the LORD for His Holiness
The LORD reigns;
Let the peoples tremble!
He dwells between the cherubim;
Let the earth be moved!
The LORD is great in Zion,
And He is high above all the peoples.
Let them praise Your great and awesome name—
He is holy.

The King’s strength also loves justice;
You have established equity;
You have executed justice and righteousness in Jacob.
Exalt the LORD our God,
And worship at His footstool—
He is holy.

Moses and Aaron were among His priests,
And Samuel was among those who called upon His name;
They called upon the LORD, and He answered them.
He spoke to them in the cloudy pillar;
They kept His testimonies and the ordinance He gave them.

You answered them, O LORD our God;
You were to them God-Who-Forgives,
Though You took vengeance on their deeds.
Exalt the LORD our God,
And worship at His holy hill;
For the LORD our God is holy.