"Routine"

It has now been a month since my last day at work. I have been trying to stay busy. I’ve put a big dent in my job jar but the worst thing is I don’t have a routine anymore. My day use to start around 5am and end around 11pm. Now I usually fall asleep around 2am. and wake up whenever. Don’t get me wrong, going to bed at any time is kind of cool but it is still not good. This reminds me of summer vacation when I was a kid. The first month of summer vacation, there was no bedtime curfew but then in the last couple of weeks before school would start my mom would have us go back to our bedtime curfews. Not having a routine for the day messes me up. Abba wants us to have a purpose and not waste what he has given us. Each day should be considered as a gift Abba has given to us.
Every month I receive the FFOZ monthly ERosh. They are really good and have great info. This month’s ERosh is called “The miracles Of Kislev”


17 November 09

As the rains that started during Cheshvan continue to nourish the land of Israel, the temperatures begin to drop. Daylight hours dwindle away and the long, dark nights of Kislev begin. One cannot help but naturally feel slightly melancholy and glum during the winter seasons. Thankfully, God has given us many reasons to rejoice during this season.

On the 25th of Kislev, the anniversary of the rededication of the Temple is celebrated for eight days. This festival is customarily known as Hanukkah. For thousands of years, the Jewish people have remembered the miracles God performed for the Maccabees. They were not only able to stand up to the persecution of the Syrian-Greeks, but were also able to rededicate the defiled Temple. A frequent phrase heard during this season is "nes gadol hayah sham," a great miracle happened there.

Though this has been a time-honored celebration by the Jewish people, the earliest attestation to the celebration of Hanukkah is not from Josephus or the Mishnah, but the Gospel of John. In John 10:22-42, the Master was present at Temple in Jerusalem during Hanukkah. Just like his previous visit during Sukkot, the crowds were eager for him to announce his kingship as the Messiah. "If you are the Messiah, tell us plainly" (John 10:24).

Relating to the story of Hanukkah, the Master points out that he had already told them, "the works that I do in my Father's name, these testify of me" (10:25). For both the Maccabees and the Master, the presence of God's miracles signified his approval of their efforts. Both sought to uphold the true standard of Torah in the face of opposition. For the Maccabees, Hellenist Jews and Syrian-Greek persecutors opposed them. For the Master, unbelieving Pharisees and Sadducees challenged his teaching of Torah and the Kingdom of God.

In both situations, the miracles were present for all to see. Unfortunately, miracles do not produce faith; they sustain faith already existent. In the days of the Maccabees, the Hellenists refused to remain true to Torah. In the days of the Master, the unbelievers refused to believe in the One sent from the Father.

The same is true in our day. Miracles are there if one chooses to recognize them. The Amidah prayer expresses it this way: God's miracles are "with us every day" and his wonders and favors are "in every season." Yet, many ignore the miracles that sustain us day in, day out. It takes great faith to acknowledge miracles.

May your Hanukkah be filled with the remembrance of the miracles in the lives of our forefathers, the miracles present in our daily lives, and most of all, the miracle of the salvation made available through the One who was sent from the Father-Yeshua the Messiah!

"How big?"

I have been cleaning my computer desk today, when I came across one of my SD memory cards. I couldn’t remember what was on it. I found out it was mostly fill with my NYC pics, but my mom took these pics of my cat Chance. Chance is clueless on how big he really is. It doesn’t matter what it is, he will always try to fit into it. It seems like he always has to be first before the other cats so he can watch them in his little hide out. Anyway we seem to do that with Abba at times. We try to keep Abba in our little boxes. Abba’s ways are higher than our ways and His way doesn’t fit in our little box.
- Isaiah 40:12, 15
“Who has measured the waters in the hollow of his hand and marked off the heavens with a span, enclosed the dust of the earth in a measure and weighed the mountains in scales and the hills in a balance? Behold, the nations are like a drop from a bucket, and are accounted as the dust on the scales; behold, he takes up the coastlands like fine dust.”
- Psalm 139:2-16
You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways. Even before a word is on my tongue, behold, O Lord , you know it altogether. You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high; I cannot attain it. Where shall I go from your Spirit? Or where shall I flee from your presence? If I ascend to heaven, you are there! If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there! If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me. If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light about me be night,” even the darkness is not dark to you; the night is bright as the day, for darkness is as light with you. For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there were none of them. How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I would count them, they are more than the sand. I awake, and I am still with you.
So how big is Abba?

“This is my destiny”

For the past couple of weeks, I have been trying to finish this blog. At the beginning my thoughts would change and the titles would change. It felt like it was in a holding pattern, nothing was coming out. Plus I have also been busy witnessing in Albany on Friday nights. I felt peaceful even more so because I know I’m doing what Abba wants me to do. I didn’t really care at first, I don’t really need to do a blog all the time anyway but as I was listening to one of Dennis Jernigan’s songs “This Is My Destiny” I started to get that desire to write again. I typed in this title and started working on it that day. I tried getting back to it but things were just popping up taking my time. Then on Tues Oct 20, 2009 me and two other drafters were let go. I’m actually calm about it now but when I got home Tue, I really didn’t want to talk to anybody but my brother Joe, who was thru it before, was downloading everything to me telling me what to do and getting me to start the process that day. Then yesterday, I was called by one of the drafters that was let go and also I had tons of stuff to do, driving all over the place. Then today I got a call from my former boss who wasn’t there that day we were all let go. Also for the past two nights, I have been talking to my 23 year old nephew till 4:00am in the morning. I took care of him since he was 4, I was his surrogate mom at that time and next week he wants to take me to his favorite karaoke/ burrito bar with his friends. Can you imagine me singing in front of people? YIPE! Anyway, so I really haven’t been getting any time to feel sorry for myself, Abba has been pulling me forward whether I like to or not. What is even weirder, I have been with the company 11years 9months. I don’t know, but to me it's just weird. I started drafting for the company on Jan 20, 1998. So finishing this blog today feels like my journal. I don’t know what Abba has in store for me, but knowing what he has already done for me in my life, I can say this with confidence, Abba is up to something. This is part of the beginning of the song “This Is My Destiny” on the We Will Worship Album. Enjoy :O)
“But I don’t half to wait until Heaven to enjoy that intimate relationship. He delights in my presence. His thoughts toward me outnumber the very sands of the sea and before He laid the foundations of the earth, before time began, I was in His mind and He destined me to be His very own and He says this “Child, I know the plans I have for you, plans to give you a hope and a future” oh Lord we love you, we bless you and crown you king. We proclaim that you are the Lord and the destiny of every believer’s heart.

"Ambushed"

For the past week I have been trying to play catch-up w/ my chores. I usually do my laundry on the weekends but last week I was at the women’s retreat. It was my first one and it was good. I actually wasn’t too quiet and talked to people. On the first night, they played Anita Renfroe’s “It's Probably Just My Thyroid” dvd. Wow, she is really good. I laughed almost the whole time. But what was better than that, the next day, I met someone who is going to help me. Funny thing is she doesn’t really come to Seed’s too often because of school and work but for some reason she came to the retreat. She told me she goes out on Friday nights with a group of her friends to witness. When I heard that my mouth dropped opened. I have been praying to Abba to help me with that because Abba has been bugging me to go but I have been just to chicken to go out alone. I did it once last year but that was it. I knew Abba had ambushed me at that moment. Several years ago, Abba took me to a place and showed me speaking to a crowd. The place looked like an airport. It had a huge 40’ glass wall and I was standing on top of a white plastic picnic table. At first I was behind myself. Then I was me listening to myself surprised on how I sounded “That came out of me?” I then was off to the side of me standing on the ground looking up and I was actually normal weight again. Was I happy when I saw that! It has been 10 years and they still don’t have the right level of thyroid medicine in me yet. Auggh! I hope that when I go out and speak to people it will be all Abba. Now I can finally say “Here I am Lord, send me”

"Ladies Escape retreat"

This Sat/Sun, Sept 19 & 20, I'll be going to Seed’s Ladies Escape retreat at Christ the King Spiritual Life Center in Greenwich, New York. It wiggs me out that we are going there because it is a catholic place. I grew up being catholic and was even confirmed. I can gratefully say now "I am a born again spirit filled true believer." As a kid I went to Christ the King school in Albany, how ironic. The bondage and suffering I went thru at that school...I still have bad dreams from that. I almost didn't sign up but I know Abba is with me plus I need to be with my church family. No excuses, I just need to suck it up.

“Push Buttons”

My engineer came into my office room today to tell me that on my job Garvey Ave,(aka Gravy Ave from the guys at work because the first 5 floors are typ. Hey, you snooze, you lose) the structural steel post for the elevator needs to be moved because it is in the way of the elevator push buttons. The concrete product I draft will also need to be moved too on every drawing, but I still sat there laughing. How could something so small be such a problem? This also reminds me of what we see and hear. A bad movie, people degrading other people or bad situations can still influence us. In Galatians 5:9 says "A little leaven leavens the whole lump." and in Proverbs 4:23 ”Keep your heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life” We need to guard our hearts. If not, the little things in life will just be able to control and “push our buttons.”

"The battle is not ours"

Four months ago, my sister Becky gave me "VeggieTales - Esther, The Girl Who Became Queen" DVD. I took Becky last year to see "The Pirates Who Don't Do Anything: A VeggieTales Movie" It was a really good movie and I loved the song "YoHo Hero" Becky told me I would like Esther. She was right and it really hit home for me w/ the layoffs at work. Yes, I know it is a veggietale cartoon but sometimes Abba will use simple things to strengthen us. Here is a song from it.



Mordecai: You wanted to know why you
became queen. I told you God must have a reason.
Esther, perhaps he put you here, for such a time as this.
Perhaps this is the reason.

Ester: Tell me why, I don't understand.
Tell me why, or show me your hand.
Tell me why because I can't see my way through
What now...should I...do

The battle is not ours

We look to God above~

For he will guide us safely through

and guard us with his love

I will not be afraid

I will not run and hide~

For there is nothing I can't face

when God is at my side

No, there is nothing I can't face

when God is at my side

The battle is not ours

We look to God above

For he will guide us safely through

and guard us with his love ~

Narrator: Queen Esther just learned that sometimes God has
plans so big only he can see 'em! All she had to do was believe.

"He is Holy!"

A couple of years after I graduated from college, I took a second job working for the Albany Times Union News Paper. I had a paper route when I was 12, but this was different. I would fill about 30 boxes(see pic) along Central Ave @ 5:30am. It would only take about a hour to do. It was my responsibility to clean, fix, and move to a better place these boxes to sell my papers inside. I took this job to pay for my school loan from JCA that Abba did not want me to go to in the first place. Anyway, one day in April, it had lightly snowed and the boxes had a light coating on them. I used my hands to wipe off the snow because I had ran out that morning forgetting my Mechanix gloves. I would wear the gloves for gripping the papers and for no ink to get on my fingers. I was half way through my route when my hands were starting to get numb. As I was loading the box, I held the door with my knee and would let the door swing up and hit my left hand so the door would not slam shut. At that moment I had my fingers too close to the opening and the door came up and squished them. I yanked out my hand and yelled,” God!” A few seconds later Yeshua said in a facetious chided tone, “ I suppose you want Me to heal you now.” I said, ”no??” I got in my truck thinking, why is He mad, what did I do?” Then Yeshua said "Theresa, think of it this way, at least you have ice." Sometime later, I started thinking about what had happened that day and why He was mad at me. Abba reminded me of what I had said. I was so sorry, I didn’t realize what I had said. I had called His name without regard. I am determined not hurt Abba again. For He is Holy!

Psalm 99 - Praise to the LORD for His Holiness
The LORD reigns;
Let the peoples tremble!
He dwells between the cherubim;
Let the earth be moved!
The LORD is great in Zion,
And He is high above all the peoples.
Let them praise Your great and awesome name—
He is holy.

The King’s strength also loves justice;
You have established equity;
You have executed justice and righteousness in Jacob.
Exalt the LORD our God,
And worship at His footstool—
He is holy.

Moses and Aaron were among His priests,
And Samuel was among those who called upon His name;
They called upon the LORD, and He answered them.
He spoke to them in the cloudy pillar;
They kept His testimonies and the ordinance He gave them.

You answered them, O LORD our God;
You were to them God-Who-Forgives,
Though You took vengeance on their deeds.
Exalt the LORD our God,
And worship at His holy hill;
For the LORD our God is holy.

“Come, my child, come.”

Abba has wanted me to write this for a very long time. I have been putting this one off for a while because I know people are going to be angry, discount me or even curse at me for this one. About ten years ago on a Saturday morning in my bedroom, I was preparing a lesson for the next day. I taught the 8yr – 12yr kids at the church me and my brother attended at that time. As I was sitting there, I was caught up into the spirit to a place I do not know. From above inside I saw it was a warehouse packed with people in a radial symmetrical group. Rows and rows of people just walking towards a small hole in the center and just falling in. Then I became one of them walking towards that hole. I could see the hole but I didn’t care if I fell in. Then I heard a voice in a distance behind me saying “Come, my child, come.” I turned for a moment but then I still was walking towards the hole. The voice got louder and stronger “Come, my child, come.” I turned around and started walking toward the voice. It was easy at first but as I started getting to the middle part of the group they started to grab me knocking me down trying to turn me around forcing me to walk their way, I started to give in and then I heard again “Come, my child, come.” I force my way thru and was getting toward the outer edge of the people. They tried to hold me but they seemed to be getting weaker as I was reaching to the outer edge of the group. I leaped out and saw who was calling me. There was a person in a white robe sitting on a large white marble throne. From the chest up there was a cloud. I focused on his right hand. It was a human adult hand. I could sense someone to my left I turned my head and saw Yeshua. I ran to him. He grabbed me and hugged me. As I was in his arms, I looked to my left and saw the outer edge of the group. Their backs were facing me. They were so close, I reach to touch one but couldn't. I asked Yeshua “Do they not hear you?” He says “They hear me, but do not listen.” I was then back sitting on my bed. I sat there amazed and stunned. I was grateful to be saved. Now there are many ways to explain what each area meant but I going to let Abba tell you this one. He wants to rescue you. He is tugging at your heart to seek him, to become intimate “Come, my child, come.”

"What a mess!"

These pics are from my grape vine I planted 12yrs ago. (click on pic to see better) The vine was a little over a foot tall and I used a tomato cage for support. I wanted it to grow a little first before I start to prune it and tie it to a wire fence. As you can see I haven't touched it in about 10 years. The Blackberry vine bushes are now mixed in with the grape vines. Ouch! Serves me right for letting it grow that wild. In the next couple of weeks, I will try to cut back the berry vines and in Feb I'll be able to start pruning the vine. Having a grape vine requires a lot of attention. Just in the first year of its growth, the vine requires constant watering for root development. Also the vine in the next 3 years also requires to be shaped, pruned, & molded on the wire fence to continue to grow in that direction. In John ch 15, I understand more now what Yeshua is saying "I am the true vine, and My Father is the vine dresser" Abba cares for us. Just like a vine we require a lot of attention too. If we let Abba shape, prune, & mold us, we will bear much fruit for Him. He wants to see His vine branches grow and takes delight in us when we do.

"The Ultimate Gift"

I finally got to watch this movie. It has been in my Netflix que for over 6 months. 11bucks a month for unlimited Netflix is worth it. This movie cannot be missed it is 2 hours long but well worth the time.

"He Will Carry You"

Last night at Seed's bible study, Rabbi Steve had us break into groups and pray for each other. Milli and Nick were with me. Milli had some of these words in her head "If He carried the weight of the world, He will carry me" for a week and I told her it was a song. I also told her I would get it for her. This 80yr old prayer warrior started to praise and thanked Yeshua. That's cool. Abba put us together just so she could know what it was and I bet he is going to have her bless me somehow too. Rabbi Steve was teaching about the love factor in faith. 1 Corinthians 13:13 "And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. Something has been going thru my head also. Some people say they love Yeshua but then they have this book of stamps against Abba. He never answered my prayer, He didn't save this person and they died, or I trusted him but I got hurt. People act as if Abba has sinned against them. Abba has never SINNED! Only we have. Holding this unforgiveness against Abba will only separate you from him. Abba is in control, not by our standards but his. If we trust Abba to take real control over our life we need to have real faith (a love for him) that "he will carry you."


"He Will Carry You"

There is no problem too big
God cannot solve it
There is no mountain too tall
He cannot move it
There is no storm too dark
God cannot calm it
There is no sorrow too deep
He cannot soothe it

If He carried the weight of the world upon His shoulders
I know, my brother that He will carry you
If He carried the weight of the world upon His shoulders
I know, my sister that He will carry you

He said come on to me all who are weary
And I will give you rest

There is no problem too big
God cannot solve it
There is no mountain too tall
He cannot move it
There is no storm too dark
God cannot calm it
There is no sorrow too deep
He cannot soothe it

If He carried the weight of the world upon His shoulders
I know, my brother that He will carry you
If He carried the weight of the world upon His shoulders
I know, my sister that He will carry you

If He carried the weight of the world upon His shoulders
I know, my brother that He will carry you
If He carried the weight of the world upon His shoulders
I know, my sister that He will carry you

He will carry you, He will carry you

“Wii - like to play”

When I was 13, my parents bought a Nintendo game system for the family @ Christmas. My baby brother Steve was 7 and would severely kick every one’s butt. The only game I would even have a chance was Super Mario Bros. The only bad thing about the game was the person had to die before the next person could play. Steve and I would play for points and boards - no warps. This is normal unless you had a brother like Steve. He was so proficient at the game he would never die until he reached level 8 (two hours later) and to make matters worse he always could finish the section in under 100 seconds. So he usually had at least 200 seconds left and would go thru the boards breaking every brick he could find for points. It would take so long for my turn that I had to start a new rule “No unnecessary brick breaking”It was always a uphill battle. The playing field was never even until Nintendo made the Wii. I can definitely say this, Nintendo finally reprieve all the siblings that would get creamed by their brothers & sisters. Playing the Wii doesn’t require “fastest thumbs in the west” anymore but forces the person to engage in battle allowing the person to do the fighting rather than the computer controlling us. The person is now the controller. It balances the playing field. When we accept Yeshua, satan has no more control over us. Abba is in control of our life now. We have a free will to choose, grow, learn. “Wii - like to play”


1 Wii console = $ 250.00
1 Wii Controller w/ nunchuk = $ 40.00
1 Wii Fit w/ Balance Board = $ 80.00
Finally being able to beat your smarty pants baby brother @ Nintendo…Priceless

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"A MIGHTY WORSHIPPER"

Friday at church they played “Great is the lord almighty” during worship. I loved this song and finally looked it up. Dennis Jernigan is the writer and singer. I down loaded 4 of his albums. My favorite so far is “Giant Killer: A Heart Like David” Here is one of the songs from it. The way he sings reminds me of another album I listen to a lot, “Spirit over New Mexico” by Calvary ABQ worship team. They all sound like the Maranatha Singers. I wish they would play some of these worship songs again up here in New York on the radio. You don’t hear songs like this anymore. Shalom :O)



THE LORD REIGNS, HE IS A MIGHTY GOD THE LORD GOD REIGNS
THE LORD REIGNS, HE IS A MIGHTY GOD THE LORD GOD REIGNS
GREAT IS THE LORD ALMIGHTY HE IS LORD HE IS GOD INDEED
GREAT IS THE LORD ALMIGHTY HE IS GOD SUPREME
GREAT IS THE LORD ALMIGHTY HE IS LORD HE IS GOD INDEED
GREAT IS THE LORD GREAT IS THE LORD

THE LORD REIGNS, HE IS A MIGHTY GOD THE LORD GOD REIGNS
THE LORD REIGNS, HE IS A MIGHTY GOD THE LORD GOD REIGNS
WHEN THE CHILDREN OF ISRAEL CAME TO THE BRINK
HE LED THEM THROUGH LETTING PHARAOH SINK
THEN THE CHILDREN WERE DANCIN' AS OLD PHARAOH SANK DOWN
LIFTING UP A MIGHTY JOYFUL SOUND SINGING
GREAT IS THE LORD ALMIGHTY HE IS LORD HE IS GOD INDEED
GREAT IS THE LORD ALMIGHTY HE IS GOD SUPREME
GREAT IS THE LORD ALMIGHTY HE IS LORD HE IS GOD INDEED
GREAT IS THE LORD GREAT IS THE LORD

THE LORD REIGNS, HE IS A MIGHTY GOD THE LORD GOD REIGNS
THE LORD REIGNS, HE IS A MIGHTY GOD THE LORD GOD REIGNS
WHEN THE CHILDREN OF GOD CAME UP TO JERICHO TOWN
THE LORD SAID CHILDREN LET'S WALK AROUND SO FOR SEVEN WHOLE DAYS
THEY WALKED A-ROUND THAT GREAT WALL,
TIL THE LORD SAID SHOUT AND WATCH IT FALL, CHILDREN
GREAT IS THE LORD ALMIGHTY HE IS LORD HE IS GOD INDEED
GREAT IS THE LORD ALMIGHTY HE IS GOD SUPREME
GREAT IS THE LORD ALMIGHTY HE IS LORD HE IS GOD INDEED
GREAT IS THE LORD GREAT IS THE LORD

THE LORD REIGNS, HE IS A MIGHTY GOD THE LORD GOD REIGNS
THE LORD REIGNS, HE IS A MIGHTY GOD THE LORD GOD REIGNS
WHEN HIS CHILDREN WERE DYING AND LOST IN THEIR SIN
MY GOD DIED AND HE ROSE AGAIN
AND I'VE BEEN REJOICING SINCE HE TOOK MY BLAME
I THANK YOU JESUS, PRAISE YOUR NAME!
GREAT IS THE LORD ALMIGHTY HE IS LORD HE IS GOD INDEED
GREAT IS THE LORD ALMIGHTY HE IS GOD SUPREME
GREAT IS THE LORD ALMIGHTY HE IS LORD HE IS GOD INDEED
GREAT IS THE LORD GREAT IS THE LORD

GREAT IS THE LORD ALMIGHTY HE IS LORD HE IS GOD INDEED
GREAT IS THE LORD ALMIGHTY HE IS GOD SUPREME
GREAT IS THE LORD ALMIGHTY HE IS LORD HE IS GOD INDEED
GREAT IS THE LORD GREAT IS THE LORD
THE LORD REIGNS, HE IS A MIGHTY GOD THE LORD GOD REIGNS
THE LORD REIGNS, HE IS A MIGHTY GOD THE LORD GOD REIGNS

"I want my prize"

In the movie "Good Boy" Owen has to prove to his parents he is grown up enough to pay & take care of a dog by himself.

Owen - It's adoption day!
Mom - What?!
Dad – Hey, pal.
Mom - It's dining room day, Owen.
Dad - Let's see that calendar.
Mom - Didn't you just start that job?
Dad - He's right. Exactly three months today he's been walkin' those dogs.
Owen - Not one problem. I already got mine picked out at the shelter.
Dad - Good for you, O. Great job.
Mom - Yeah, that's great. Terrific. Listen, can we talk for a second? Don't you think that it makes more sense to wait until after we move to the new place before we get the dog? I'm just thinking of the dog. That way, he won't have to relearn a new house and a new neighborhood and all that other newness.
Owen - We had a deal, Mom.
Mom - We did. We sure... we sure...we absolutely did.
Owen - "The best way to achieve your goals, Owen, is to make a plan, work hard, and always keep your eyes on the prize."
Mom - That's an exact quote, isn't it?
Owen - I want my prize.

What is our goal as a true believer? apostle Paul said it best "I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." Philippians 3v14 The "prize" is the call Abba has on our life not only to have a call but also doing our call with Abba. Running the race with him. I want my prize!

"In His Time"

Back in 1994, when I rededicated my life to Abba and was attending HVCC, I remember waking up one morning and the song “In His Time” was going thru my head. Abba was reminding me that no matter what he is in control and he will do things in his time. I remember some of the things that were on my heart, what is your will for me, am I going to get a good job, what is my future, am I ever going to get married. Abba has taken care some of them and he will continue to take care of me. He is in control of my life. Every aspect small to great and he will keep continuing to do just that “In His Time”.



In His time, in His time,
He makes all thing beautiful in His time.
Lord please show me every day,
As your teaching me your way,
That you’ll do just what you say, in your time.
In your time, in your time,
You make all things beautiful in your time.
Lord, my life to you I bring,
May each song I have to sing,
Be to you a lovely thing, in your time.
Lord please show me every day,
As your teaching me your way,
That you’ll do just what you say, in your time.
In your time, in your time, in your time lord,
You make all thing beautiful in your time.
Lord, my life to you I bring,
May each song I have to sing,
Be to you a lovely thing, in your time,
Be to you a lovely thing, in your time.

"Little m&m say cheese!"

This was the starting of the hole of the family room window screen. Now the hole is as wide as my cat Chance. Because he keeps going thru it. I'm waiting till the end of summer before I fix the screens just in case. She doesn't go to my bedroom window anymore because a month ago I opened it for Chance one morning to go out on to the roof and at the same time she shows up trying to get in. Chanced was not amused. She chattered at him being in the window blocking her way but then he started to look at her as a chew toy and chased her away. Now why doesn't he do that downstairs?

"Little m&m is back!"

Ok,ok,ok. I know I said I wouldn't write about little m&m anymore but the squirrel has become little destructo and I found out it is a mommy. Oh and yes I'm still finding M&M's auggh!!! It has become kinda of a joke in my family. This pic came from my b-day card and the words inside said "mappy mrrfmay!"because the chipmunk's face is stuffed and my sister added "hehe, kind of looks like your favorite animal." I guess the squirrel still remembers M&M are in the house. She now has chewed thru the window screens and gone thru my mom's cereal. I'm grateful it has not been hot in Albany. The windows stay shut unless somebody watches. I am going to start training her to eat outside with squirrel food and nuts. Hopefully this will reprogram her to find food outside.

"And in that day you will say..."

About 12 years ago I was laying on my futon bed hanging off to the side playing with kittens. I had found them in a rotted out tree log on my property several weeks earlier. I had just started reading my NKJV bible when I became distracted with them. As I was playing with them, my bible pages flipped opened to another book & chapter. I saw this and suddenly stopped. I slowly turned my body and moved back in front of the bible to look at what it opened to. Isaiah 12 seemed to look different, almost bigger than the rest of the words. I was a little wigged out but I started to read Isaiah 12. Only after four times reading it I memorize it. Abba imprinted this scripture on my heart. Unfortunately, I still cannot memorize scripture. I do know a few but those are the ones you hear all the time and they are usually not an exact quote anyway. Sometimes I can finish what people say but usually I can only remember what book it came from. I have been trying to memorize John ch 3 vs16 -21. I still have not been able to do that. It is so frustrating. I have read Isaiah 12 in other versions of the bible but NKJV is still my first and favorite. On one of the bible commentaries I have read, David Guzik called this chapter “Isaiah 12 - Words from a Worshipper” I would defiantly agree. Because in that day we will say… “Cry out and shout, O inhabitant of Zion, for great is the Holy One of Israel in your midst!”


Isaiah 12 NKJV
A Hymn of Praise

And in that day you will say:

O LORD, I will praise You
Though You were angry with me,
Your anger is turned away, and You comfort me.
Behold, God is my salvation,
I will trust and not be afraid

For YAHWEH, the LORD, is my strength and song
He also has become my salvation
Therefore with joy you will draw water
From the wells of salvation.

And in that day you will say:

Praise the LORD, call upon His name
Declare His deeds among the peoples,
Make mention that His name is exalted.
Sing to the LORD,
For He has done excellent things
This is known in all the earth.
Cry out and shout, O inhabitant of Zion,
For great is the Holy One of Israel in your midst!

"Sidekick"

In the movie Sky High, the main charter Will Stronghold is starting super high school and hasn’t gotten his powers yet. On the first day of school, he and his friends are put thru power placement to find what powers they have and what classes they’ll take. They all end up in sidekick or “hero support” class. Will finally tells his superhero parents he is a sidekick. The very next day his super strong power comes and he is transferred to hero class leaving all his sidekick friends behind but in the end it is the help of the sidekicks that put away the bad guys. This movie is really funny and kind of corny but it reminds me of when people find out what their gifts are from Abba. We all should be sidekicks helping and building up one another and not to act like heroes because only Abba, Yeshua, and Ruach are the real heroes. We are just the taxicabs Abba is the driver. I guess you need to watch the movie to get what I’m saying. Anyway I don’t know what gift Abba has for me yet but I can’t wait to be his Sidekick.

"The God of second chances"

Back in 2003, I was listening to an interview where a person was being asked “Do you think things happen for a reason?” The person replied very angrily and blaming God. My response to this was a very mean selfish off the cuff remark not knowing what had happened to him but Abba knew how I would react. He had opened my eyes to what my heart was saying and who I was in that area of my life. But then in Aug 2007, Abba gave me a second chance and I was able to help that same person this time around. I was looking something up when I came across this person’s bio. As I was reading it Abba started to show me sad events in his life. I cried out “Lord if he only knew you” The Abba told me specifically what to pray for. Several weeks later Abba took me to a place and showed me the prayer I prayed for him being fulfilled. It was really cool, a kodak moment. I know this person is going to be ok because of what Abba showed me back in 2003 and how he is now different today but I also know he still needed to choose. I don't know if he is saved or not. I haven’t been able to speak to him since that day but I know Abba will take care of him. Now Abba didn’t really need me to help and bless this person. Abba could have done it himself but he needed me to grow up and to change me into a true believer. For the past two years I’ve felt him doing just that. I don’t know what Abba is up to with me right now but I know he will always give us a second chance.