"Little M&M pt. 3"

I can't believe I'm writing about this again and No, there will not be a part 4. Yes "little m&m" has gotten in the house and yes it was because of me.(sigh) About 3 weeks ago my mom came home and found him in the family room digging into a, just bought a day earlier thought it was safe, brand new bag of peanut m&m's since the last episode. He sees my mom and runs to the windows. She goes over there to open the other window and it jumps off and starts to run up the family room stairs. My mom opens the back door and it runs out. I come home and get an earful. I had no idea how it got in. This happened I think on Tuesday. On Friday I come home from Seeds around 10:30 and go to bed. As I put my arms under my pillow, I feel pieces of something. I automatically think it is Chance's cat treats. He has gotten into his treat bag before and dumped it on my bed. I don't get up and turn on the light, I just push the stuff off my bed to deal with it in the morning and fall asleep. I have been sleeping downstairs on the couch for most of the week because I have been detailing production shop cards for work. I woke up the next morning to a squirrel squeaking on my window screen. As I start to really wake up, I noticed pieces of peanut m&m shells stuck to my arm. I must have left my window screen open and forgot to close it on that Tuesday. My cat Chance likes to go sit on the roof and instead of waiting for him to meow and wake me up, I would leave it open until morning.

the "tests" of time

I just got back from my Aunt Joan and Uncle Jack's 60th wedding anniversary. WOW 60 years. That is awesome. Their marriage was definitely fire tested but it stood the "tests" of time. Todah Abba for your agape love. It's sad most marriages today don't survive. There are a lot of things out there that hurt marriages. If the foundation isn't created by Yeshua I don't know how it could survive. My Aunt Joan is my mom's older sister. My mom was the baby of the family. She was the flower girl. My grandma Violet O'toole had 15 kids. She had RH neg blood. That alone is a miracle. Only 2 kids passed away soon after birth. My brother and I were named after them. I look a lot like my grandma. My mom had 7 of us but one was a miscarriage. She named him Eric. My dad passed away 11 years ago this month and gave his life to Abba a week before he died. Both sides are very catholic but my mom and aunt are both saved and my brother and two sisters are saved as well. I love the movie "Fireproof" it has helped a lot of marriages. My Mom and Aunt both have Yeshua as their Chief cornerstone and their marriages stood the "tests" of time.

"clutch, clutch, clutch, clutch, clutch”

I always wanted a dirt bike since I was a kid. In 2006 God gave me a strong desire to get a permit. Then last year in June I was driving to work thinking about my motorcycle learner’s permit and how I need to take the safety course for my license but I wanted to practice on a bike first because I didn't want to fail and lose $300.00. Then the Holy Spirit said “What if God got you a bike?” I started to laugh for a second and quickly stopped. I said “I know he can get me the bike but then I would need insurance, title, inspection, all the gear for riding. I just can’t afford it right now.” Several weeks later God got me one. I love it so much. I was driving to work on the same road the Holy Spirit talked to me about getting a bike. I drove past it and knew it was for me. A guy who’s son races was selling a Honda xr 80cc bike. I don’t know how God did it but I was able to scrounge up $700.00 for that bike a week later and within a month I was able to get all my gear for the basic rider course. In Aug. I took the course and passed. God has been impressing upon me to share this in my blog but also the story when I first rode the bike. I don’t know what for but I know he is up to something I just haven’t figured it out yet.
Several weeks later, after I picked up my bike, I needed to ride it that weekend because I wouldn't be able to ride it again for another 3 weeks and my course was fast approaching. I practiced riding it down a hill without the engine running to practice my braking skills and get comfortable with the bike. I have a basic book on motorcycles. It had a buyers guide for beginners and taught how to ride. It was a good book but I have poor reading comprehension. I failed 6th grade because of it. I also went online because I wanted to prepare and make sure I knew what I need to do. The previous owner was going to teach me how to ride it but I chicken out and said I’ll figure it out. It was on Sunday around 1:00pm, people were leaving the Baptist church across the street. After being online for the whole morning reading about it, I thought I was ready. There is a hill on the side of the duplex I live in. I took the bike down the hill and sat on it next to the garage. With my helmet and gloves on I started the bike. I let go of the clutch too quick and took off fast. It didn't stall. I’m over 300lbs. I didn't expect the bike to go so fast in 1st gear. An army of acrobatic clowns could be on it and it would still go fast. At the same time the Holy Spirit was yelling “clutch, clutch, clutch, clutch, clutch, clutch, clutch” I was so shocked. I couldn’t think. I yelled “where the hell is the clutch?”(sorry, yes I did swear). He showed me my hand grabbing the clutch. I then grab the clutch but the bike wasn’t slowing down fast enough. Both feet were off the pegs. I thought I was going to stop in the street and get hit by one of the cars leaving. The Holy Spirit was telling me to use the front brake but I thought I would flip over. Somehow the bike slowed down and stopped before the street. I was so relieve I started to take my hands off the handlebars to put them on my legs but the bike was still on and in first gear. The bike bolted again for about 6” and just shut off. For some stupid reason I tried starting it again but the bike wouldn't start. I drag it up the hill and place it in front of the kitchen windows. I go back online to try and figure out what I did wrong. I went back out around 7:00pm. My brother Steve comes home and I ask him to come watch just in case something happens. He doesn’t come back until 20 min later. He finally comes back and I try starting it again. I couldn’t get it to start. Steve even tries and he can’t. I have about 15 min left until it gets too dark. I give up and bring it back to the front of the kitchen windows. I start to carefully look over the bike wondering why it didn’t start. I noticed the fuel petcock was turned off. I start blaming my brother for turning it off but realized he wasn’t the one that turned it off. At that moment Yeshua says to me ”You know you have 10 minutes left why don’t you try it now?” I said “ummmm it’s hot.. I’m tired and I don’t want to drag it up the hill again.” He says “Oh.. ok.” As if to say "sure.. whatever you say."

Do-ba-dee-doo

About 10 years ago I went to my baby brother's church. They did a lot of plays there. My brother Steve is no longer saved. Please pray for him. He knows the bible very well but uses the excuse that there are too many contradictions in the bible. He likes to read a lot of philosophy books and books that degrade Abba. He enters a lot of chess tournaments. His brain is very methodical. I’m analytical in my thought process but I have a hard time explaining things. So he thinks I’m just quoting what a preacher would say but I have hope. I know God loves him and will heal his hardened heart. The days ahead are going to get more evil and I think this moment will be a testimony in his life. When he gives his life back to God he will be even more surer of his salvation and be a stronger witness for the harshest of unbelievers.
Anyway one day back then, I was washing the dishes and he comes into the kitchen. We started to talk about the songs in the plays at his church (he played the guitar and piano there). We started goofing off and made a oompa loompa song. Steve no longer wants to be associated with this song but I know this song we made will still help someone.


Oompa Loompa, do-ba-dee-doo,
I’ve got a perfect puzzle for you.
Oompa Loompa, do-ba-dah-dee,
If you are wise you’ll listen to me.
What do you get when you’re living in sin?
A trip to hell and you’ll never win.
So turn to GOD and forsake you’re ways
He will guide you in all your days.
Then you’ll be...
Then you’ll be...
Then you’ll be in Heaven
Oompa Loompa do-ba-dee-dah,
If you live godly you will go far.
You will live in happiness too,
Like the oompa loompa do-ba-dee-doo.
Do-ba-dee-doo

"Just Suck It Up and Go For It"

This cartoon came from my work’s newsletter. I’m not sure where they got it from but it’s still funny. It made me think of God being inside us and No, we are not his puppets but true believers that have a free will and can choose. When true believers repent of their sins and accept God to be Lord of their life “Yeshua will baptize them with the Holy Spirit and fire.” See Mathew ch3vs 11.The Ruach HaKodesh (ROO-akh hak-koh-DESH) Holy Spirit dwells inside us. In 1 Corinthians ch6 vs 19 “do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own?” In Mark 13:10-12, God wants us to go out and preach the gospel. The Holy Spirit will speak for us. God sees what’s in other people’s hearts and knows what they need to hear. Abba has been getting on my case about this lately. I have been putting it off. I have no problem going in and knocking down a fire but put me in front of a person who doesn’t believe? I would like to run to a nearest rock (or in my case boulder) I am such a chicken. Don’t ask me what I’m afraid of. I have no idea. Everybody at my work knows I’m a Christian but when God wants me to witness to a complete stranger I turn into a whiner baby. What makes it worse is my church really doesn’t have a team to go out and do it. It’s easy when God has me witness to people that I know but with strangers God needs me to Just Suck It Up and Go For It.

No one is to be forgotten

Last year when the movie expelled came out it only played for a couple of days in my area. I didn’t get to it in time. Yesterday I was able to see it on the Netflix site. It was a good documentary but there was this one scene in the end that really upset me. Richard Dawkins authored a book that he read from, explaining what he thought and said about God. I wanted to cry. It was like someone hitting and degrading my dad but I prayed for him. In the past, I wouldn’t have prayed for him but back in 2003 Abba had opened my eyes and showed me I needed to have compassion and pray for people who choose to hate him before they die. Because then it will be too late.
I was at work listening to the local TV station on my walkman. A person was being interviewed and he was asked “Do you think things happen for a reason?” he replied “No, I don’t believe that there is a God...” and started to degrade and belittle God. I got very angry and said, to myself “boy is he going to have a rude awaking when he dies.” Then immediately Yeshua said to me “You don’t know what he’s been through!” at that moment I knew I was toast. I then said “I just meant that he will know the truth when he dies.” Holy Spirit says softly "why are you angry?" I replied "this is righteous anger!" Yeshua says “You have no right to say that!” and slammed down what he was holding. Then he said to me “I will choose whom I will send!” Yeshua starts getting to the heart of the issue with me. He says “Do you think I need your help defending me?” In a low voice, I said “no.” He was showing me that everyone was precious to him. That no one is to be forgotten regardless if they choose him or not. Then Yeshua said to me firmly “Right now I need you to pray for him.” I apologized to Yeshua and then prayed for that person. A few minutes later Yeshua took me in the spirit to a place outdoors. I was standing in front of a stage. Yeshua was to the right of me. I looked back and saw hundreds of people packed in with wooded area on both sides. I turned back around and saw the person I prayed for standing behind a podium speaking to them being used of God. Then I was back at work. I had learned a very hard lesson that day. Yeshua was speaking to me from what my heart was saying not my head. I hope this person gives their life to God. In Romans 8v30, Abba has predestined whom he has called but people still need to choose. “Abba’s will” will still be done by who he has called or by someone else who is willing to take their place if they choose no. I know that Abba will not give up on us until we know him. Because to Abba, no one is to be forgotten.

a true believer

Being Abba’s kid is no easy task let me tell you, but Abba will use things in our life and turn them into good for His purpose. These past few years have been pretty crazy for me. Abba has been having me help someone. Before this Abba would have me help his kids but only for a moment. Nothing else – no connection but this time Abba needed me to grow up. Most of my life I was always alone. I kept everyone at a distance. It worked for me. I had Yeshua and that was all I needed @ age 4 something happened to me that changed me. I hated my family and I made a vow to myself never let anyone become close. I forgave my family when I was 22 and things did get better but I still pretty much honored that vow up until 2 years ago. Abba had turned my life upside down and kicked me out of my shell. He wanted me to grow up and as he was doing this at the same time he had me help show this person what a true believer really was. My life became a lake house with glass panel windows. Everything was exposed in a second. Who I was in Yeshua and all my faults, nothing was left hidden. That how Abba wants us to approach people. Nothing hidden – nothing to gain, to be a true believer.

"Little m&m part 2"

Thursday, October 16, 2008

     About 3 weeks ago, I had finished doing my laundry and put my clothes basket on the chair in the family room. Several days later, I grab a shirt and found a orange peanut m&m stuck to it. I wondered how it got there. Since the squirrel incident, I have kept the family room windows closed. I brushed off what had happened until that weekend. On Sunday, I was walking down the stairs and noticed my cat Jazz & my mom's cat Sassy sitting watching the squirrel on the window. I started to laugh because I thought the squirrel was outside trying to get in. No, actually the squirrel was on the inside trying to get out. I went over to the window to lift the blinds and the squirrel flies off the window and runs into the kitchen. At this point, I'm thinking the squirrel is trapped and I need to open the door. As I start to walk into the kitchen, I see the squirrel sitting on the window sill with a peanut m&m in his mouth. As I started to walk in further, the squirrel scoots out at the bottom of the window screen. 
     Now months before this, I was outside and noticed the bottom of the screen strip, that holds the mesh in, was out about 8". God wanted me to fix it at that moment. I said I'll get to it later. Well obviously later never happened. So if God is telling you to do something - just do it. Because you will be ripping your house apart making sure there are no more peanut m&m's.

"little m&m"

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

I have a cute "little" story. Over the years, once in a while, a squirrel would get in the house. On this occasion, the squirrel came in through the air conditioner side closure. Normally they don't come back, but this time was different. This squirrel was determined. I have a yellow peanut M&M character dispenser that I keep on a shelf above my computer. At first I thought my cat Chance was knocking it down spilling the peanut M&M's everywhere. Until one day my mom caught him in the act. By taking out the air conditioner I thought I solved the problem. Next the squirrel rips down the screen. I then put the screens on top and the glass on the bottom. Then the squirrel opens the screen just a little bit from the top and got in. I have blinds on the windows and I didn't figure this out until a week later. In the mean time the squirrel figured out how to open the dispenser and was taking the peanut M&M's and hiding them in my house. Under the couch cushions, in the book shelf, under the TV…. you get the idea. Sugar and squirrel not a good combo. I'm still finding the peanut M&M's. Anyway I think of us as being Abba's little M&M's. Abba is determined to get in our lives one way or another to rescue us. Question is do we want to be rescued?

“You know what we get to do today?”

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

I know it has been a real long time since I did the first log entry but for a good reason. Over a year ago, GOD had me help someone very special. This person has been through a lot in their life, even almost to a breaking point. But then GOD saved them in a supernatural way and then choose me to help him do it. I know this person now is going to be ok. They will soon know how precious they are to him and then their heart will finally be healed and I saw GOD using them mightily. I do have to admit it still has been pretty crazy though but I am grateful that GOD chose me to do it. It is really cool that GOD uses us to help people. I mean GOD really doesn't need our help. He can do it himself but he does it for us to be blessed and to be a blessing. To be his light for his kids. I was definitely blessed by it and it was really cool - a kodak moment. Look what the Lord has done! I wish more true believers could be open, more focused on helping others. Just imagine true believers trusting GOD completely and having no hidden agendas, No quid pro quos for helping GOD's kids regardless if they are saved or not. Don't get me wrong either. I have fallen off the horse more times than I care to explain but just to help GOD's kids know who their real dad is…is what it is all about. We need to get back on that horse and have Yeshua walk us thru it. To guide us on the path that he has designed and destined for us to ride. There will be days when we just won't even want to get out of bed. But I am reminded of a part in a movie called "The Rookie". In this scene Jimmy Morris is about to give up and go back home giving up on his dream to play in the majors. As he was walking back to the hotel he sees a little league game being played. The spark inside was reignited again. The next day, he tells Brooks (teammate) "You know what we get to do today? We get to play baseball." Somehow we also need to get that spark back. The one we had when we first really knew GOD and was saved. Then we will say "You know what we get to do today? We get to play – FOR GOD!"

Yahweh

Monday, July 10, 2006


Hello everybody! just to let you know I am going to use this space to praise YAHWEH! I'll try to do it every day and tell what Yahweh has done for me.


Stardate 28734.5 special day to....... only kidding


Praise Yahweh! I was in a huge bind. I needed to send out a package and DHL closed at 7:00pm. I needed to pick up a few things and had enough time but I forgot I had to go to DHL. I had only 10 minutes I wasn't even on 787 yet. I got there and it was 7:00 there was a guy in there filling out a paper. DHL always closes before 7:00 but not today! Todah Yahweh!

myspace transfer

Here are a few blogs from my myspace http://www.myspace.com/lifesong72 , I have been having trouble since I started it. Rows of words were consistently disappearing. One time I had to use #0 for the words to stay there. If I have problems with this site it must be user error.